http://www.evil-unveiled.info/2007/01/rookiee-determinedpj.html
Cynthia Harvey: Administrator of evil-unveiled.com
To Cynthia, it never mattered whether anyone committed a crime. Her motives appear to be of a more sadistic nature. She accuses her targets of being "pedophile activists" or "pedophile enablers" and posts their information on evil-unveiled trying to inflict as much private, familial and public shame and pain as she can, relishing the emotional-sadomasochistic sexual rush she receives from hurting people by harassing them with these accusations.
The information presented here about Cynthia was provided by Cynthia herself on various websites under the various online identities she has used over the years. There is no way to verify whether her accounts of past or her present life are true, exaggerated or outright lies. Some of it seems to be the product of some rather twisted sexual fantasies, raising disconcerting questions about her true motives
In 2006, she wrote on bondage.com:
"I've done a whole lot of thinking about this since my first encounter with an emotional masochist about 8 years ago. It was good for me to recognize that I'd been doing this for a long time, and that it wasn't consensual, and that I had no right to be doing what I'd been doing. I'll give you an example of what I'm talking about, so you can see how truly nasty and rotten I was: "
"What I'm talking about is hurting someone's feelings. In order to do that, I have to know where their soft spots are, their vulnerabilities and insecurities, so it's helpful, though not necessary, to be in a relationship with them of some sort. Of course, there are a lot of people who wear their vulnerabilities on their sleeves, and they're prime targets for mean people. I think that most people who know me think I am a nice person, and I do think it surprises someone when I get "down and dirty" and poke at, or outright slap the fuck out of a vulnerable spot."
"Isn't it great to be with someone who will encourage you like that? On another thread, Milky said that being with a serious, true masochist was what really helped her out with her sadistic urges, and I agreed, because that was a huge catalyst for me. Same with emotional sadomasochism."
"now. I'm looking for people I can engage with on this level without the yelling and passive aggressiveness, just plain old honest to goodness emotional pain, with the understanding that, yes, this gets me hard, and I hope it does you too, but if not, deal with it. (hell, the latter is more likely to get/keep me hard)" @That same year she joined Perverted-justice where, encouraged by the anonymity of their members, Cynthia and the other 'Wikisposure project' administrators and editors had a separate forum section on PJFI.org (the perverted justice official website,) where they provided templates how to anonymously help in their harassment campaigns against their accused pedophiles without implicating Perverted-Justice or Wikisposure.
Calling it their "follow up procedure," they encouraged their members to distribute flyers in their accused pedophiles victims neighborhoods and coordinated these members to send massive amounts of emails and Private Messages to all the friends, employers, neighbors and relatives on social networking sites etc, using several 'blank' throw-away accounts to bypass these sites' spam filters for maximum impact.
During that time, Cynthia's harassment included targeting minors and their parents - 'for the lulz' [*,*].
Shortly after the information about the the co-administrator of wikisposure, now administrator of evil-unveiled, was first made public in Sep. 2010, the owner of Perverted-Justice (Xavier von Erck) removed "the Wikisposure project" from the PJFI list of websites and took the Wikisposure server off-line, citing "issues between volunteers and inevitably, drama."
As a further result, 'DeterminedPJ aka Cynthia' deleted many of her posts from perverted-justice (or they were deleted by the admins) and quit PJ.
Cynthia then created evil-unveiled.com [1], "a Nashville based group", of which she soon showed to be the administrator and spokesperson. [2][3][4] She was recently interviewed by Ryan Luby on www.Ketv.com where she used the alias "Veronica" [5] and on www.wsmv.com where she used the alias "Victoria," speaking about her site evil-unveiled.com [6]
In many cases, these vigilantes were within their free speech rights in the USA. In other cases, however, their behavior violated various websites' Terms of Service, may have run afoul of state privacy and cyber-stalking laws, and may constitute libel.
This blog, listing the identities of the contributors of http://absolutezerounited.blogspot.com, their vigilante ilk and the administrator of evil-unveiled, will, at the very least, give these crusaders pause before they make unwarranted assumptions and spurious pedophile accusations.Cynthia then created evil-unveiled.com [1], "a Nashville based group", of which she soon showed to be the administrator and spokesperson. [2][3][4] She was recently interviewed by Ryan Luby on www.Ketv.com where she used the alias "Veronica" [5] and on www.wsmv.com where she used the alias "Victoria," speaking about her site evil-unveiled.com [6]
In many cases, these vigilantes were within their free speech rights in the USA. In other cases, however, their behavior violated various websites' Terms of Service, may have run afoul of state privacy and cyber-stalking laws, and may constitute libel.
Childhood.
The daughter of a schizophrenic mother, Cynthia and her two younger sisters were moved from place to place, attending no fewer than 23 different schools. Cynthia claims that as the result of her parents' separation when she was six years of age, she felt "forced into a father/husband role" which resulted in gender identity problems as well as a hatred of God. But her anger at her father, as she revealed in 2006, was not the result of abuse, but his emotional distance and refusal ever to believe that his wife (Cynthia's stepmother) was abusing Cynthia and her sisters whenever they visited.One weekend her father came to pick them up and she recalls:
"we couldn't go with him, because she had starved us, beaten us, and shoved things in our cunts on the kitchen table,"But her father didn't believe it:
"He thought, I guess, that our mother put these things in our heads"Then years later, when she left her daughter in the stepmother's care, despite the claimed abuse at that woman's hand:
"When I told him that she locked my daughter in a closet once, while I went to a dr's appointment, he didn't believe me."
This is from a letter that Cynthia (supposedly) sent to her dying father in which she recalls how she lied in court and about how the stepmother:
made us terrified of our own mother. I told the judge that I wanted to live wtih you because I was more afraid of my mother than I was of Sandy, which is about as twisted as it gets...She wrote more specifically about the "Sybil" episode:
She humiliated us, publically [sic] and privately, and exposed us to ideas and evils we weren't old enough to comprehend. You know, she let us watch Sybil, which had the scene about the buttonhook, and it was long after/before that, that we were on the kitchen table, legs spread, having some kind of stuff poured into our private parts, listening to he talk about what all could have happened that we ended up with a yeast infection.
She made me wear RIDICULOUS clothing to school, and it wasn't a matter of 'this is all we can afford,' because it was not. A pair of cheap jeans at the thrift shop would not have cost more than the wedge heels, stockings and very short skirts that I was made to wear...
She did not feed us enough food. You were only there at dinner. This is the thing I have proof of. Stef and Kellye went from two slim, happy girls, to two fat, insecure unhappy girls in a very short period of time.... [W]hen we got back to mom's,...[w]e ate everything in sight. ... We all have eating disorder...
We did not get enough sleep, many times. She's wake us up and make us re-do chores we hadn't done just right, in the middle of the night. If we started to cry, she threatened us with severe punishment if we woke you up. She threatened us with severe punishment for telling you ANY of this. @
We were NEVER allowed to stay up past bedtime (which was 6:30, weekend or not), but one night, she mysteriously allowed us to stay up and watch Sybil. That's not the best show for a 12, 9, and 8 year old to watch, but we were happy to be able to be up, and not trying to go to sleep while it was still daylight. So we watched it. If you've seen it, there is this part where Sybil's mom would do things to her genitals. That was disturbing to me for two reasons: 1. my mom would NEVER do those sorts of things to us. 2. my stepmom just might. So we went to bed terrified.Cynthia also has written about her obsession with hands and once wrote about an older man's hand going into her shorts and hurting her @-- which, she admitted later, may be fiction too:
And the next day we were kept home from school. She had us strip and put each of us on the kitchen table and "examined" us. The examination consisted of a bunch of random poking, pinching, and general humiliation. She decided that we all had yeast infections, so she shoved some of those monostat tablets inside us, and made us lie on the table like that for what seemed like hours, holding our legs up and together. I guess I should mention that my step brother was also home, and was watching all this.
And here's where it gets really fucked up. The next day, she took us to the doctor and told him that she'd seen signs of abuse while bathing us. She had the doctor examine us, and he said yes, that indeed it looked like there had been sexual abuse. They blamed my mother for this. My mother, who we hadn't seen in over a month. And, of course, we weren't allowed to tell father about any of this. It was a secret. @
When I write an essay, if one small fiction slips in, the whole world tilts sideways and it's hard to steer it back to its course. I usually have to trash it and start over. I can't start my memories over, though, and I don't know if the hands are fiction or not, so I'll have to keep them and try to make sure they don't veer me too far off. I do look for them sometimes, when my environment feels safe and I have time to veer. Now is one of those times. But sometimes I look for them when I have no harbor or time, and that's scarier than the hands are. I wonder where I will end up, where the search will take me. I might go too far. Shhhhhhh, this is a secret. @
Adulthood.
Cynthia (now a sadomasochistic slave-trainer, social engineer and expert at manipulating people) was a former system and security administrator for redhat.com, and she ran her own hosting service company at one point. @Using the alias Rookiee (stolen from a pod-caster she once targeted @), Cynthia also blogs on http://rookiee.blogspot.com and contributes to the vigilante blog http://absolutezerounited.blogspot.com and is the creator, spokesperson and administrator of evil-unveiled.com.
Absolute Zero United and some of its members were sued civilly in Arizona federal court for defamation, copyright infringement, cyber stalking and harassment, intentional infliction of emotional distress, and other tortious acts. @
Cynthia was not named as a defendant only because she has remained anonymous...until now. Whether she will eventually be found liable for any of her past organizations' torts, or her new ones on evil-unveiled is anyone's guess, but at least now those she accuses on evil-unveiled will have the opportunity to call her to account.
Motivation.
She's a self-confessed "rapist" @ and a practitioner of BDSM. By her own account, she is "not a sensual sadist, using the definition that many people use online." Rather, she takes pleasure in inflicting both physical pain and emotional distress in her victims.
"you WILL suffer for my pleasure," @
"I'm a 40 year old top who lives in MS and TN. I've owned and trained several slaves in the past 7 years, and have been a sadomasochist for a lot longer."Not long ago she was banned from a major forum chat-room for refusing to stop talking about rape and searching for a 'mentor' to help her "deal with the idea that I want to hurt people I like." @@[page1][page2]
When asked why one would want to rape or hurt their partners, Cynthia explained that, as a sadomasochist, she enjoys "getting off" on the very good illusion of non-consent, though "i'd even wager that sometimes it's not an illusion." @ [mirror]
With past exploits for wikisposure and her new exploits on evil-unveiled, she has clearly found an outlet to let some of her most sadistic urges escape into unbounded real-world torment.
Much earlier, Christiaan from a christian forum made the following observations about her myspace profile:"now. I'm looking for people I can engage with on this level without the yelling and passive aggressiveness, just plain old honest to goodness emotional pain, with the understanding that, yes, this gets me hard, and I hope it does you too, but if not, deal with it. (hell, the latter is more likely to get/keep me hard)""I don't mind causing someone emotional pain while relating something that's gonna hurt because of the nature of the THING itself (well, I do, actually. It's hard. But it has to be done). What I'm talking about is causing someone emotional pain for...the hell of it."
"'Determined,' in a nutshell, is a 40-something lesbian mother living in Biloxi, AL (update: this was true at the time her Myspace information was entered). She is an injured former musician.
Don't miss the irony of her saying, completely enthusiastically, that her first ever romantic interest was intergenerational! (‘Determined’: “ I've been in love with Meg Ryan since I was 12
years old and used to skip school to watch her on the soap opera.”
Meg was then 21 @). Basically, I think (‘Determined’) is defeating an abuser in her own life over and over again, symbolically, not just with every arrest of a real child abuser, but with every public pillorying of a non-abuser who she sees as an activist and facilitator. That would be all of us here, no matter how clean-livin' we are.
Did it happen before she started dismembering dolls, or was the symbolic violence part of her reaction to the abuse she suffered? Or did it symbolize her own feelings of being torn apart? I’ve had many lesbian friends and they were often energetic and not made for dolly-play as kids, but I’ve never heard of one shredding dolls limb from limb before. The violence she must feel against her
abuser(s) and all simulacra of that person can only be incredible. There is aggression in everything she says, you can hear it, even in “breffus.” And then suddenly you see where it goes when it can’t sustain itself: drunk-dialing.
A self-admitted alcoholic, bisexual, gender-confused person, Dale is an outstanding example of the sort of exotic personality it takes to make a witchburner vigilante organization work in the modern age. It is already amazing that the organization she works for has any credibility, and one hopes her exposure will help to make the public realize that most players on the vigilante side are a lot freakier than those on the BL side. Never before has a defender of public morality freely published that she has enforced
days of silence on her partner, sometimes gagging him by making him hold his own dirty sock in his mouth, and then restricting him from urinating until he has accidents." @
"No one here has anything bad to say about transgender or bisexuality. They are just fine. Even being sexually sadomasochistic is absolutely a neutral factor in and of itself. I've known some very kind people who were S, M, or versatile in those attractions. Good people who have this sexual orientation restrict its expression to role-playing and fantasy. It's only where someone ignores social consideration and delights in tormenting people in real life that you may have a problem. A sadist who can't contain her sadism within consensual role-play, and enjoys tormenting people in real life, is analogous to a rapist. The essence lies in having a moral screw loose, not in having a particular kind of sexual symbolism in your psyche."
Cynthia's alleged childhood abuse by her stepmother and her present fantasies of possibly having been a pedophiles's victim seem to be of a piece with her sadomasochism and desire/urges to hurt and harm people. Evilunveiled.com and absolutezerounited do not exist to do "justice" and very much exist to do harm. Cynthia relishes and 'gets off' on the emotional damage she is able to cause by "outing" people on evil-unveiled and informing her victims' families, friends and employers.
Outwardly, Cynthia claims to the BDSM community that she hates pedophiles because they are trying to latch on politically to sadomasochists.
In her other life, as a sadistic pedo witch hunter and the administrator of evil-unveiled, however, it is easy to see how Cynthia's self hatred (as a "vile" sadist who also entertains vile fantasies of rape and molestation) is her main expression.("If you are a bdsmer and you sympathize with pedophiles because you, like them, are seen as vile and violent people, then you need to fucking get a clue. pedophiles are like fucking leeches, they'd like to leech on to what is ours, as sadomasochists.")
The sources linking Rookiee / Determined / Trillian Dent / Cynthia Jean (Dale) Harvey:
- 'Rookiee' admits to being 'a bdsmer' [1] on http://rookiee.blogspot.com, a blog she hijacked from a podcaster in the same name@, also writing about examples of owning slaves and about how the BDSM activists, who were seen as abusers and violent people, succeeded in aligning themselves with the gay movement by "coming up with the "SSC" thing". [2] [3]
- Listed as a contributor to the vigilante blog http://absolutezerounited.blogspot.com, Rookiee's blogspot profile (holding references to 'The hitchhiker's guide to the Galaxy' @) briefly showed she also owns the blog http://relativesecrets.blogspot.com [1] on which a bisexual transgendered mother named 'Cindy Dale' [2][3] writes about her youth, her sisters, abuse by relatives, her gender identity problems, her mother Jean/Nanny, her alcoholism causing her to loose her daughter Xi, and that she is "putting the BDSM stuff in another blog" [4]. She also mentions a house fire in which she lost paintings from her daughter Xi and all her books [5].
- On Rookiee's other blog called 'Never Know' (http://noobsfixinit.blogspot.com) a wife speaks of having just bought a house and she links to an imageshack account and a 'gardenweb' account in the name of trilliant. She says "My daughter paints." [6][7][8]
- On the now purged and deleted blog http://trainerc.livejournal.com, a bisexual mother named 'C' voiced her hate of pedophiles trying to latch on politically to sadomasochists. [1][2].
She also said: "go read any pedo board" and "I've been doing a lot of volunteer work for a web org which works to prevent online predators from getting to kids in chatrooms" [3] and she linked to an article on the perverted-justice website [4] as well as to her other blogs http://relativesecrets.blogspot.com [5] and http://bitchletters.blogspot.com [6].
http://trainerc.livejournal.com also contained the URL to a photobucket account in the name of 'cjdale' with pictures of her traveling daughter Xi. [7][8] - A bisexual transgendered mother called TrainerC speaks freely on the BDSM site http://bondage.com where she wrote nearly 5000 posts . She links back to her blog http://trainerc.livejournal.com [@] and writes about searching for a 'mentor' to help her "deal with the idea that I want to hurt people I like.", raping a man and getting away with it, 'getting off' on emotional sadism and blackmail, and her life as a sadist in the process of training a slave called 'Zul' aka 'soap_boy', also providing pictures and the email address cindy@cableone.net. [1][2][3][4][5]
Cindy regularly linked to her now deleted 'invite only' blog http://bitchletters.blogspot.com which, according to her, is composed of emails she received from and while training her later 24/7 contracted slave 'Zul' a/k/a 'bob', a man who divorced his wife to serve her. [6][7][8]
On this 'bitchletters' blog, Cindy links to an article she wrote for SimplyService, a monthly BDSM newsletter, explaining "how to train slaves for short term or full time service". This article is credited to 'C Dale', a sadomasochistic slave-trainer from Mississippi. [9][10][10mirror] - Public records reveal a 'Cynthia Jean Dale' a/k/a Cindy Dale, born Feb. 28, 1965 from Petal/Biloxi/D'Iberville [1]
- A person named 'Determined' relayed a message from Xavier from perverted-justice to the libsyn.org administration, concerning a podcast called 'pedologues' by a podcaster named "Rookiee" which, according to Xavier, violated the law by 'advocating adults having sex with children'. [
1][mirror][archive]
On page two in that thread, a member of http://libsyn.org says he reported the email address cjdale@gmail.com 'for abuse' [2][mirror][archive]
Elsewhere, a moderator of the 'podcast pickle forums' reports that paying customers of libsyn.org are receiving emails from 'C Dale', regarding "a group of pedophiles producing a podcast which advocates adults having sex with children". [3] - On her myspace profile (with a "dont panic!" image from 'The hitchhiker's guide to the Galaxy') DeterminedPJ mentions being a bi-sexual from Biloxi MS, being an injured former musician (RA stopped that @), a fire in which she lost over 700 books, skipping school for Meg Ryan @, a birthday of Feb 28th and a habit of drunk-dialing which, amongst many other details, are also present on the other accounts. [1][2][3][4][5][6] (:
- As apparent on their facebook and other accounts, Cynthia married her contracted slave Zul a/k/a Bob Harvey in 2010 and they bought a house in Nashville TN. [@][@][mirror][@]
- A search leads to the facebook profile 'trillian dent' (a name from the hitchhikers guide to the galaxy,) mother of 'Xi' @ @ @ @, who lost about 700 books in a fire @ @ and who has former Wikisposure editor 'Carolynn Rouse' a/k/a Carmen Gija, and 'Rebecca Jackson Kennedy' a/k/a WinryRockbell in her friends list @, while also unveiling her involvement with evil-unveiled.com [@] a Nashville based volunteer group of which she stated to be the creator, leader, administrator and spokesperson [@][@][@]
- On her trillian dent google+ account @, she also mentions the trouble evil-unveiled had with the DMCA [@] and once again lists her old alias as "sillyhead".
- Further research recovered many more accounts and aliases with more information and matching details.
Anonymous 'Veronica' being interviewed about evil-unveiled on the left / Cynthia's husband Bob Harvey on youtube on the right.
"They're like cockroaches, they're everywhere," anonymous Veronica says. <=> "They're just everywhere like cockroaches," Trillian Dent aka Mrs. Harvey says.
Recently. she also confirmed the connection herself: http://www.facebook.com/groups/VAPINGWORLDWIDE/permalink/308762469229622/
Recently. she also confirmed the connection herself: http://www.facebook.com/groups/VAPINGWORLDWIDE/permalink/308762469229622/
Lies and the other volunteers behind Evil-unveiled.com
First, using her alias 'Sillyhead', Cynthia wrote about evil-unveiled.com on the forum of the James Randi Education Foundation where she says: "DISCLAIMER: EU is not my site." @
As trillian_dent on facebook, she says: "This is a website I helped put together, a different group are running it now" @
While in her interviews on ketv.com and wsmv.com, different claims are made:
"a woman who is the leader of a website called evilunveiled"
"Veronica and her team of just six volunteers"
"evil unveiled has only been around for about two years now, but their volunteers credit themselves to about 50 convictions"
"we are talking about the pedophiles she tracks on pro-pedophilia websites and forums and eventually exposes on her own website evil-unveiled.com"And on 17 Dec 2010 on absolutezerounited.blogspot.com where she is a contributor, it is written:
"Last month (November), the Wikisposure project was discontinued by Perverted-Justice. Today, International Boylove Day (IBLD), 2010 - It appears that some of their volunteers have broken away and independently taken it upon themselves to restore this valuable resource for the community, under the new name "Evil-Unveiled." " @So if you believe she lied on facebook and Randi.org, but told the truth in the news and on absolutezerounited, then a part of the same group that ran Wikisposure, are now also behind evil-unveiled.com. She could, of course, just as easily have lied to the news-stations too.
Known aliases:
Determined, DeterminedPJ, Determined Fiend, DeepSouth, Rookiee, Dee, C Dale, Cee Dale, cjdale, Cindy, Cindi, Cynthia, Cynthia Green,cindyinbiloxi, Green, TeaTimeGreen, lookin, Silly, Silly1, Sillyhead, southernnsick, TrainerC, Trilliant, Trilliand, Trilliandent, Trillian Dent, Trillian Gently, Trillian Kugelblitz Gently, Trilldo, thetrillthing, Trill, Veronica, Victoria.
Known accounts:
http://evil-unveiled.com
http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1825962124 [trillian dent][friends][Winry][Carolynn]
https://plus.google.com/u/0/118180325256968211736/posts [@]
http://rookiee.blogspot.com
http://www.blogger.com/profile/11650362427137553573 [mirror]
http://myspace.com/determinedPJ (determinedPJ@yahoo.com)http://pjfi.org/office/member.php?u=37649 [@]
http://twitter.com/#!/Trillian_Dent
http://relativesecrets.blogspot.com [mirror1]
http://relativesecrets2.blogspot.com
http://noobsfixinit.blogspot.com/ (also called 'Never Know') [mirror]
http://myspace.com/cindyinbiloxi [mirror][blog]
http://www.facebook.com/people/Cee-Dale/100001454241089 [mirror]
http://photobucket.com/albums/h170/cjdale [mirror]
http://myspace.com/178233038 (cindy@cableone.net)
http://www.myspace.com/508155287 (Trilliandentwows@gmail.com)
http://trainerc.livejournal.com [
http://bitchletters.blogspot.com [
http://trilliandentwows.blogspot.com
http://www.bondage.com/u/1490295/user.html [mirror1][mirror2]
http://www.collarme.com/TrainerC [mirror]
http://trainerc.femdommesociety.com [mirror]
http://people.tribe.net/trainerc/
https://thetrillthing.wordpress.com/
https://auth.gardenweb.com/members/trilliant
https://auth.gardenweb.com/members/sillyhead
http://photobucket.com/albums/ae93/Trilldo (Trilliandentwows@gmail.com)
http://profile.imageshack.us/user/trilliant [mirror1][2][3]
http://determinedpj.livejournal.com/profile
http://sillyhead425.livejournal.com/profile (cdale@techmonkeys.net, used to comment on her daughters blog)
http://www.stumbleupon.com/stumbler/sillyhead
http://www.beatdownbrigade.com/forums/viewtopic.php?f=2&t=3464
http://us.battle.net/wow/en/character/eonar/Trilliant/simple
http://www.youtube.com/user/Trilliandentwows
http://raskeptic.blogspot.com (letstraddle@gmail.com)
http://www.hipforums.com/newforums/showthread.php?p=6863508 (TeaTimeGreen)
http://www.rainbowgatherings.org/profile/Green?xg_source=activity (Green)
http://www.hystersisters.com/vb2/showpost.php?p=3484829&postcount=1 (southernnsick)
http://wbe001.mibbit.com/?&server=irc.skepticsrock.com&channel=%23chat (SillyHead)
http://forums.randi.org/showthread.php?t=206572 (SillyHead)
http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=683903025 (Bob Harvey, new account)
http://www.websleuths.com/forums (sillyhead, banned)
http://www.scribd.com/trilliand/info (deleted)
http://www.wearewomenmarch.net/members/trillian_dent
http://www.facebook.com/groups/gayvapers/
http://fuckcombustion.com/members/trilldo.9875/
http://nu-vapor.com/forum/members/trill.html
http://loveit.com/trillian.dent
http://www.myspace.com/trillllll
http://www.change.org/members/6623909 (trillian dent)
http://web.archive.org/web/20030816053954/blog.flog.us/cindy
http://web.archive.org/web/20000303222254/http://www.techmonkeys.net
http://web.archive.org/web/20030216025825/http://silly.techmonkeys.net
http://web.archive.org/web/20020330210004/http://silly.chiqs.com
http://replay.web.archive.org/20010906104524/http://silly.chiqs.com/pics/silly1.gif
http://imageshack.us/photo/my-images/402/resumeaj.jpg/
IP Update May 15 2012:
67.172.102.160 ( c-67-172-102-160.hsd1.tn.comcast.net)
(leads to her husbands computer and personal website)
previously
Active email:
cjdale@gmail.com
letstraddle@gmail.com
trilliandentwows@gmail.com [@]
info@evil-unveiled.com
Married to and living with:
Robert Harvey [@] a/k/a 'slave Zul' [1][2]
Last known Address:
Robert Harvey
(615) 866-9839
3735 Bakertown Rd
Nashville, TN 37211-5001
Cell Phone:
615 300 7043 (source: http://pastebin.com/xEp5Jz52)
Additional quotes from Cynthia:
"Your hottest (vanilla) sex experience?" [@]:
"Hmm, dunno how vanilla this is, but I raped someone once. We were always messing around w/ each other in the car, but, for some reason, he just never wanted to actually fuck. So, one night, we were pretty much naked, and I threw my leg over his lap, and fucked him, even though he was screaming NO! NO! NO! Hmm. I guess I could've gotten in trouble for that."
Her opinions and experiences with Emotional Sadomasochism [@]:
"I'll talk more later about my specific experiences, but the issue I'm most interested in is this: How can you tell when you can let down your hair and be the emotional sadist you really are? "
"I hated the idea that I might in some way hate men like my mother did/does. But, the more I thought about it, the more I realized that A) I liked to do the same thing with women"
"I don't see emotional sadomasochism as a healthy thing. I think it's more healthy than my cigarette addiction, but I don't see it as healthy. It's very edgy for me, because I don't always know what the outcome will be.
but when I'm out to hurt someone, emotionally, that's what I'm out to do: HURT him/her. And a lot of times, anger, resentment, etc, can come from that kind of pain. So, I think it's pretty risky, but it's a risk I'm willing to take,"
"What I'm talking about is hurting someone's feelings. In order to do that, I have to know where their soft spots are, their vulnerabilities and insecurities, so it's helpful, though not necessary, to be in a relationship with them of some sort. Of course, there are a lot of people who wear their vulnerabilities on their sleeves, and they're prime targets for mean people. I think that most people who know me think I am a nice person, and I do think it surprises someone when I get "down and dirty" and poke at, or outright slap the fuck out of a vulnerable spot."
"A lot of us who are emotional sadists are not safe people to be around unless you're very sturdy emotionally, and are resourceful enough to pull yourself up by the bootstraps when it's over. Gods know I'm NOT the aftercare queen. (:"
"When I first started really doing this, it was non-consensual. I dunno why the hell I get wood when I see someone squirm like that, but, thankfully, for me and for other people, I've found a much safer, nicer outlet for it in the past few years."
"As far as why I do it is concerned, it's mostly for the rush I get when someone's squirmingly uncomfy, perhaps slightly pissed off, but can't do anything about it. But I have used it to be manipulative, especially with men. For a time, it was easier for me to hurt someone's feelings to try to get what I wanted, sexually, than to actually come out and say it.I'm interested in hearing some examples of how hurting someone gets you what you want."
"Isn't it great to be with someone who will encourage you like that? On another thread, Milky said that being with a serious, true masochist was what really helped her out with her sadistic urges, and I agreed, because that was a huge catalyst for me. Same with emotional sadomasochism."
"LOL! Well, I'm glad you appreciate my company! But I've done a whole lot of thinking about this since my first encounter with an emotional masochist about 8 years ago. It was good for me to recognize that I'd been doing this for a long time, and that it wasn't consensual, and that I had no right to be doing what I'd been doing. I'll give you an example of what I'm talking about, so you can see how truly nasty and rotten I was: "
"now. I'm looking for people I can engage with on this level without the yelling and passive aggressiveness, just plain old honest to goodness emotional pain, with the understanding that, yes, this gets me hard, and I hope it does you too, but if not, deal with it. (hell, the latter is more likely to get/keep me hard)"
"I don't mind causing someone emotional pain while relating something that's gonna hurt because of the nature of the THING itself (well, I do, actually. It's hard. But it has to be done). What I'm talking about is causing someone emotional pain for...the hell of it."
BDSM bloopers [@]:
"Oh my GOD! These are some funny stories. (: My biggest blooper happened during a "rape scene." He came home from work, I pounced him and started beating the crap out of him with my belt. It was kind of dark, but I knew I hadn't hit him in the face or anything, but he started really screaming and yelling (which was rare, he just didn't do that), so I stopped to see what was going on, and doh! I was hitting him with the buckle end of the belt. I just turned it around and kept going"
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